Loneliness VS Being Alone

Being alone and loneliness are two different things. Recently I have been spending time alone and during my alone time I identified how being alone felt different now, than it felt months ago. It made me realize that there is a difference between being lonely and being alone. I started to write down what it felt like when I experienced loneliness. Here is the list I came up with:

•Lack
•Something is missing
•Depression
•Emptiness
•Incompleteness
•Isolation

I have studied Psychology for the last several years and I have a better understanding that loneliness is a state of mind. Loneliness is an emotion brought on by feelings of separation from other human beings. Loneliness is the feeling that you are alone in the world and that no one cares or is concerned about you. You can be in a house full of people and still be lonely, you can lay next to your spouse every night and still experience loneliness. Loneliness is isolation that is felt very deeply to an individual. Loneliness lead me to attempt suicide, loneliness lead me to react irresponsibly, loneliness lead me to believe that my situation would never change and that NO ONE WOULD EVER UNDERSTAND! Loneliness is a tactic used by the enemy to fulfill his mission to STEAL, KILL & DESTROY!



I have been delivered from the spirit of loneliness, and there are times that I am alone so I jotted down how I felt experiencing my ALONE TIME:

•Fullness
•Completeness
•Freedom to do what you want
•Aliveness
•Expansion
•Being enough


I am a witness that feelings of loneliness leave you feeling empty, hurt, and stagnant. In order to move from loneliness to feelings of being alone, you have to understand that being by yourself is not saying you are not worthy. It is, however, an opportunity to appreciate yourself, grow, and evolve. Use that alone time to get to know yourself again and to develop a relationship with God. Utilize this time to meditate, read your Bible, open up to God about your fears, your flaws and your desires. James 4:8 says "Draw near to God and He will draw near to you. Cleanse your hands, you sinners; and purify your hearts, you double-minded."

The Bible also says in Romans 8:28 "And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them."
So God can use your loneliness as an opportunity to draw you even closer to him. Learning to be fulfilled with ourselves in his presence. Hearing from Him concerning our lives without interruption. Isn't God AWESOME!? That even during dark periods he can turn it around and make it work for your good. That's why I serve Him...trust Him, and love Him. There is no one like Him in all the world.

If you are experiencing loneliness as a Christian the Bible tells us in Romans 12:2  That we are not to be conformed to this world, "but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God." We have to set our minds on the things of God, and continue in our faith and not operate based upon what we can see and feel emotionally. We must Trust that in every situation, God is with us and that he will never leave nor forsake us.

It's your choice how you feel. Will you be alone or feel lonely?


Love!

I will rejoice

I have learned to accept and come to terms with the known fact that ALL THINGS HAPPEN FOR A REASON! I am no stranger to seeing God work things out for my good and for His glory. I think about when I was a young child and my parents were addicted to drugs and alcohol. I remember going to church and praying that God would deliver them from their addictions. I remember going to shut-ins as a child and petitioning God to put my family back together. Although it took some time for things to manifest, God answered my prayers. I recognize that the burden to pray is one that I have been blessed with. Even during my times of trouble I recognize that I have cried out for the very people who wish harm upon me. I can't say that I'm always obedient to the things that God instructs me to do, but he placed a burden upon me to pray for my enemies. Its one of the hardest things I've ever done, and even when I finished crying out to the Lord on this persons behalf I questioned WHY DO I HAVE TO PRAY FOR HER???? Matthew 5:44 reads "But I tell you, love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you" (NIV) It is definitely easier said than done, but trust me it is possible. I trust God, and I believe that just like he delivered my parents that I too will be delivered from the hands of the enemy. I SHALL HAVE THE VICTORY! If he did it before he can do it again, and as I rejoiced then, I will again REJOICE!

Love!

Keep Calm & Trust God ALWAYS

Thinking of some of the events that have occurred in my life, I found myself trying to figure out where did I go wrong. I questioned God on why he was punishing me and what did I do to deserve what was happening to me. In this season I have found that God speaks to us through various forms, and that we should not take it lightly when we believe that we have just heard a word from the Lord.

While I was working and the situation I was dealing with was on my mind, I changed my radio station and the man of God was preaching about the children of Israel once Pharaoh had freed them from slavery. God instructed Moses every step of the way. God instructed Moses in Exodus 14:1 "Order the Israelites to turn back and camp by Pi-hahiroth between Migdol and the sea. Camp there along the shore, across from Baal-zephon. Then Pharaoh will think, ‘The Israelites are confused. They are trapped in the wilderness!’ And once again I will harden Pharaoh’s heart, and he will chase after you. I have planned this in order to display my glory through Pharaoh and his whole army. After this the Egyptians will know that I am the Lord!” So the Israelites camped there as they were told."

Late in the midnight hour God had given me instructions and had led me to take actions that I thought initially would vindicate me, however just like the situation with the Children of Israel it created even more drama and chaos in my life. When my enemy found out that I was on to her plots, plans and schemes, her heart too was hardened and she came after me, yet again. I began to pray and question why these things were happening and where did I go wrong? I questioned my obedience to God and my ability to hear Him clearly and questioned if my actions were based on fleshly desires or were they really instructions from God. The children of Israel cried out to the Lord, and they said to Moses, “Why did you bring us out here to die in the wilderness? Weren’t there enough graves for us in Egypt? What have you done to us? Why did you make us leave Egypt? Didn’t we tell you this would happen while we were still in Egypt? We said, ‘Leave us alone! Let us be slaves to the Egyptians. It’s better to be a slave in Egypt than a corpse in the wilderness!’” How many times do we question the things of God? How many times do we think we have it all figured out? How many times do we try to complete our own will instead of allowing His will to be done??? God is strategic and he knows the beginning from the end. His plan is always bigger and better than ours.

Moses told the people, “Don’t be afraid. Just stand still and watch the Lord rescue you today. The Egyptians you see today will never be seen again. The Lord himself will fight for you. Just stay calm.” This is the same message I received following my incident. God is setting things up so that once he delivers me from it, I'LL NEVER HAVE TO BE FACED WITH IT AGAIN! From that I found peace, and remained calm. Trusting and believing that God will fight for me and that the Egyptians I see here today I will see no more FOREVER! So I praise Him and rejoice now, for I know that God is with me and that all that is happening is a part of his master plan. The devil believes that he has won the war, but that was just one of many battles and I'm still STANDING!

Extremely BLESSED!