Entering into this day, I stated earlier in the week that I was unsure of how I would feel. Given that this day is almost over and I am preparing to go to bed, I reflect on this day. It started with a text from a mutual friend of mine and my soon-to-be ex-spouse that stated "Happy 9th year wedding anniversary" I replied "really!?" and he stated "Y'all are still married". Which is the truth. Originally I thought that I would be haunted by the thoughts of my failed marriage and would experience some type of anxiety, anger, sadness, loneliness...SOMETHING! But I didn't. After the initial shock of the unexpected text message, I continued on as if it were a normal day. I found myself attempting to be sad about the situation at the time, but quickly reminded myself of how much God has done for me in spite of my current marital status. I reminded myself that all things work together for the good of those who love God and immediately dismissed the spirit of sadness and depression that could have overtaken me today. Who would've thought that on a day where you expected that you'd possibly be an emotional wreck would turn out to be peaceful, productive and fulfilling....WHAT A BEAUTIFUL SUPRISE!
I read today that "We are not defined by our past failures or by disappointment, or by the rejection of others. We are defined as children of God, born again to newness of life and endowed with every spiritual blessing and accepted into Jesus Christ." This is what gives us the victory in our daily walk with Christ. I am walking according to my faith in Jesus Christ instead of being driven by my emotions.
I don't know for certain all that God has in store for me, but I trust Him. And so I decided today even if it hurts or feels uncomfortable that I will continue to trust God. Even when I don't understand, I'll trust God. Even when its difficult, I'll trust God! Because He knows the plans He has for me! So I continue to love my life and everyone in it!
Stay Blessed!
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