The Present

It's been a minute since I contributed to my blog but I know that I was created to encourage others through my writing and I had become discouraged and self conscious about my abilities as an author. But I'm back!!!! And this is what has been laid on my heart....

I had dinner with a friend who reminded me that when living in the past, it is our attempt to keep ourselves from experiencing hurt, disappointment, etc. And at the same time it hinders us from being able to enjoy the PRESENT! As we continue to tell ourselves "oh I'll never let that happen to me again" we occupy ourselves with trying to control the world around us instead of taking things one day at a time. We should take life as it comes and not hold on to the idea that we "might" get hurt. I am guilty of this, but from this day forward I vow to live in the present. I can't allow my past experience keep me from experiencing something GREAT! With that mindset you put on the spirit of PRIDE even thinking that for one minute you are in control of your life... GUESS WHAT???!!! You're not...God is in control of all things and there is a lesson in every blessing...so we shouldn't take any experience for granted! Pride is a silent killer...people think that they are protecting themselves but actually robbing themselves of the "NOW" by trying to control the past and the future. FROM THIS DAY FORWARD I'LL LIVE FOR THE NOW...BECAUSE I KNOW WHO HAS THE POWER...and it ain't me!!! Stay blessed!!!!!

CeeRich

Season of Uncertainty

Uncertainty is the state of being uncertain; the instance of doubt or hesitancy; unpredictability; indefiniteness.

Have you ever thought to yourself: "I'm not where I used to be, but I'm not where I'm going"? Have you ever felt that you're not even sure where you are right now?

Uncertainty is that middle place of connection between origination and destination. During these times you are faced with storms, delays, stress, apprehension, insecurity, fear, doubt. But be mindful that Jesus too was faced with a moment of uncertainty while in the Garden at Gethsemane. In Matthew 26:39 Jesus prays saying "O my Father, if it be possible, let this cup pass from me: nevertheless not as I will, but as thou wilt."

Uncertainty will often cause you to question yourself, and sometimes God, especially when it appears that you have entered into a time of suffering. But we must remember that we have all suffered, cried, questioned or felt victimized by something or someone at some point in our lives. And these are the times to fight back and continue to weather the storm and trust God! SCREAMING: "LORD NOT MY WILL, BUT YOUR WILL BE DONE!" Because truth be told it's not about me or you, but to God be ALL the Glory!

Are you a Luster or a Lover?

Often times people misunderstand the difference of lusting after and loving another person. True love is identified as a choice to love and extend trust to another person whom we understand is imperfect. To expect that anyone whom you are in relationship with will be perfect is INSANE! to say the least.

When a person is filled with lust there is a strong desire for selfish gain and compensation for what the other lacks in their life. Lust is not something that screams LONGEVITY, because when things get tough lust will be first to go.

Entering into a relationship people must recognize that they must first identify are they doing it for the RIGHT reasons. Is it the choice to love? Or a lustful desire that is longing for companionship at any cost.

Introduction

I would first like to introduce myself and let you know who am I am the reason behind the start of this blog. I am a 29 year old female that is currently experiencing dramatic life changes, but through my life changes I have decided that I would recommit to the greater cause and rededicate my life to Christ. I am serious about my soul and the purpose that God has for my life, as well as the souls of those that I was sent here to reach through my testimony.

As I look at the calendar and I identify that tomorrow is September 11th and so many people identify tragedy with this date given what occurred in 2001. I for other reasons have another association with this date as it would mark 9 years of marriage with the spouse that I am currently divorcing. I have mixed feeling about what I will feel tomorrow. Although others will mourn the lost of loved ones, and injured heroes etc. I will be remembering that life as I have known it for the last 9 years will come to an end as of September 19, 2013. After 9 years of marriage just 8 days after we should have celebrated the joys of being married, we will stand before a judge and swear under oath that our marriage is irretrievably broken.

I have used writing as a form of healing, and I believe that others can benefit from the things that I have experienced and will experience going forward. I read several blogs and articles concerning divorce, remarriage, etc. and I found them helpful during my time of need. So I trust and believe that there are people out there who seek this information and can be blessed through my trials and my triumphs. One thing that I have learned for sure is that I AM NOT ALONE!

Until next time...sincerely,

CeeRich